#Oh lawds is i in heaven how to#

#Oh lawds is i in heaven how to#

But how do you write? Do you even know how to write like you?įor a very long time, I wanted to write like Terry Pratchett. Okay, great, so you can write exactly like Stephen King, and turn out scary fanfiction by the pound. The trap, of course, is getting too 'fanficcy', and imitating your source too much - that's where fanfiction really does get pointless and lame. Technically there's nothing to gain (there is, we'll talk about it later) but that means that there's nothing to lose! And that means you can try shit you wouldn't normally try, or play with other things that maybe you're not fully satisfied with. But here's the thing: there are no stakes. You write for nothing, don't make up your own characters, nothing. BUT it's not all bad, and now I'm going to talk about why I think All Aspiring Writers Should Try Fanfiction. I started reading Homestuck, which I documented, no big deal, but then I wrote some Homestuck fanfiction, which I swear I am trying so hard to not write fanfiction right now but it just happened I don't even know. It's okay though, blog - my novel probably has similar feelings at the moment. I have been neglectful and cruel to my poor little blog, and that is something that is very sad. Very few people can.īut God I really want to be one of the lucky ones. But eventually, I hope, I can make ends meet doing what I love. We work to make ends meet so we can do what we love: that's something my mom always told me when I was younger. Because I will never feel as comfortable being a nurse as I do when I'm writing. Not a nurse with a writing problem, not a wannabe. I need to be able to define myself as a writer. Right now, I need to define myself as something I'm not, because I can't afford to define myself by who I am. Right now, I can't write and feed myself. The nursing, the other jobs, those are all means to an end. This is what I do, this is what I love to do, this is what I want to do as well as I can fucking do it. I need to think of myself more as a writer, less as a hobbyist. It's been going on since I was like, four. Terry Pratchett quotes aside, I do really feel like I need to embrace this writing thing. But then there is another part of me, constantly at war with that part, that feels like I need something else to do in society because otherwise I feel like a lazy artist. There is a part of me that thinks (fears) I will never be truly happy unless I am a writer. It makes me wonder what I'm cut out for, as a person. This is what I love about not being in school and just having a job - I write, I ride my horse, I go out with friends, and I have disposable income.

My life is rapidly becoming a study in how tumblr, fandom, and a writing obsession can utterly destroy a person.Īnd I have to say, it's not like I'm not totally enjoying it.